2008's Resolution

my 2008's Resolution:

• get a digital piano
• get a victorian driving license (which means i hv to practice more when i go home)
  

i know it's a bit early... but today, it's exactly one month before my Honours year finish and when my holiday starts! :D
that's the only two things i can make sure i do them, the others... can only depend on my luck and my results and other stuff that i can't 'control'.

was tram-ing pass spencer street station and skybuses...
can't wait to get onto the aeroplane, go back home, go cambodia, or actually, anywhere away from melb

今天又被 supervisor 问 thesis 写到怎样了，感觉就像被爸爸问功课做到怎样了...

this morning, i was really blur...
but my supervisor is also blur... or even worse? coz at least i did realise the mistake 4 hours later
or just because he trusts me?

Royal Melbourne Show 07

Finally been to the royal melbourne show. first time in nearly 5 years since i came to melb :S
went to buy tix on friday from the postshop,
checked for the events from the daily planner at the website,
browsed through the showbags at the website,
checked train timetable.

today, without waiting for yf to finish her lunch with her fren, me and grace took the train to showground from flinders :P so yf came to join us there later :$ paiseh ar yf, we never wait for u

spent like nearly 2 hours in the showbags hall.
conclusion is: dont buy stuff from showbags until u finish walking around the showground. coz u can get stuff like the inflatable toys by itself outside the showbag hall.

walked around, headed to the pig racing but din actually watch it coz we found that open air circus should be more interesting than that, so walked to the circus place and they said they cancelled it coz of the strong wind!! :S
so we walked to the dog show... but they already finished the show! they never follow the schedule printed behind the map that they gave us!! :S
so we ended up watching sheep shearing. >.<

had fish and chips and krispy kreme for dinner
then yf went home.
left the two of us there.

wondered around, trying to find homer/bart
we asked the two ladies carrying a homer where she got it from,
1 min later, their guy fren who won that homer came to us with the homer, and gave it to us! just shocked, and also felt suspicious
but still, we happily walked around the games area with the homer and some showbags and the inflated baseball bats. :P
played the basketball game, won a small tigger after the guy gave me 3 extra chances. sigh.. but still couldn't get all in to get the bigger toy... 失败失败 dont ask me i thrown in how many times... forgot liao...

after the 4x4 and motorbike stunt, laser and firework show started at 845 for 15 mins. went home after that.

met a homeless guy at the tram stop. he came to talk to me abt my inflated baseball bat, where he went, his medibank card, his injured toes... dunno how to reply him when he asked me which tram i'm taking, incase he have bad intention
then he got on the same tram as me! and he got up from his original seat and came to sit infront of me! he asked where i'm goin, i'm so scared and dunno wat to tell him.
he got off at souther cross station, i asked him where is he catching the train to, he asked me to come nearer and whispered to me that he's homeless, and told me to shhh....

abt 1hr later... homer is in the garbage bin...

i'm bored....

how many times do i need to tell you that i dont have exams anymore and i'm still busy with my project and thesis??!!!!

郭靜 & 范瑋琪& 張韶涵 - 仨人

mum asked me to call home coz dad said long time (since his bday) never hear my voice liao. but i told her i'm busy, hvn't cook dinner, hv things to hand in tmr which i hvn't finish. and said i'll call tmr instead.
felt bad...
so i called home while i was eating my dinner.

talking to dad,
frustrated abt hving to explain to him abt the 'project structure', like why do i need to go to lab on weekends, why only me in the whole office goes back to work on weekends.
almost 2 months left for my hons year and i still need to explain this kind of things to my parents.
all becoz of the lack of communication...

a number of my frens and coursemates graduated today.
刚刚就去看回我以前（也就是去年loh）毕业时拍的照片，又想起以前 biomed 时的日子，比起现在今年，真的差太远了。以前是为了考试时读书或有时 ctg 所以没准时吃，也很少是因为做功课，而现在是常常因为做 labwork 而没吃好没睡好，更别说放假。越想就越觉得可怜。但也是自己拿来的。
我也有在读 honours 的朋友可以 weekend 不用去 lab,　几乎每天还可以五点回家的。

捱多这几个月，接下来还有几年要捱？

今天是爸爸的生日。
早上打了电话给爸爸，从 trinity year, 每次跟爸爸讲长途电话，挂电话前他都会在电话的另一端 give me a kiss，然后我就会哭了。
听爸爸说二哥会给他一个 bday surprise 问二哥他又不讲，
突然好想家...

小时候，父亲节、母亲节什么的都会做卡片给爸妈
现在大了，只有买张卡寄回去
......

i think i really need a break, away from my project.
i'm feeling lack of motivation and moral support now.
I didn't feel worried or sad when my experiment failed before this. but now, any little problem made me feel like giving up.
today, well just 2 hours ago, i left my agarose gel to set on the bench and went for afternoon tea. 20 mins later when i came back, someone shifted the combs in the gel! and of course the gel was set and i can't do anything to rescue it. had to throw the gel away and make a new one. eventhough the whole thing is not hard to make at all and it'll take me 8 mins to make the gel and 10-15 mins for it to set, but i nearly burst into tears when i saw the shifted combs in my gel.
i'm sure the person who did that did it unintentionally. and i think i know who that is coz she used the other equipment which is just behind my gel. well there could be someone else who was there just that i wasn't sure. but anyway, i dont want to know who that person is and tha'ts not important.

i need a break...

鉴定结果
您的心理年龄24岁

与您实际年龄差2岁

幼稚度36％

成熟度61％

老化度11％

how would you let your friend(s) know that you don't like the bday present they got you?
or you won't want to coz 'it's the thought that counts'?

can't believe this

yesterday, left for home at 4.45pm, went to pick up some documents on my way home. reached home before 5.30pm, had my early dinner while watching 'Deal or no deal'. finished dinner, felt empty but hyped up (becoz of the 3 ferrero roche that i had before my dinner?) then suddenly remembered that i didn't turn off one of the equipment that i used this afternoon (but it's ok to leave it on actually), sms Canny to see if she's still in the lab and can turn it off for me.

while waiting for her reply, i feel like goin back to work in the lab. then i went...
5 mins after i left my building, realised that i forgot to bring my key card to the lab. >< walked all the way back and went out again.
reached there before 6.30, bumped into my supervisor at the hospital entrance. he didn't say much, just a 'hi chern' and gave me a smile.

left the building at 9.25pm, the cleaner was still there doing her job. i actually felt safe with her around somewhere on the same floor.

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and today, after Max Brenner-ing with the few ppl from my lab, i dont feel like going home. so i walked around in melb central, went into borders and i bought some books!!!
that is very unusual for me, coz i dont read, so i dont buy book!
well, thanks to the new harry potter book. since it came out few days ago, i went to borders one day (before today) and almost bought the book while they are on '3 for 2'. and today, i really bought them. two HP books and a David Baldacci (i never heard of his name before this) book.
or mayb coz i hvn't been reading (textbooks) for these few months since april, i miss books?! :P

hope i'll finish reading all these books, coz one of the reason i dont read (storybooks) is bcoz i usually stop reading it after a few pages (except the first 3 HP and DaVinciCode)

Friday, ~5.30pm, lab
i was still doin my work and the cleaner came in to do her work, she usually starts her work at around 5pm till 9 something (or even later?)
cleaner: it's friday, you should go home early
me: yea i know... i wish i can.
cleaner: well, at least you know you're here helping someone.
me: yea... (smile)

then i thought... helping someone? but i'm doin my own project.
after a few minutes, i'm still thinking wat she means...
oh! i think she means i'm doing medical research, helping the sick ppl.
awww.... touched*

moral of the story is:
see how selfish i am and how she has a big heart

just realized that i haven't been turning on my windows media player for the past 2.5 weeks when my aunt is here! i miss my songs so much! feels so good now with the music on. :)

It's been long since i last blogged here.
my aunt from S'pore came to visit me for 2.5 weeks. She's leaving this Sat.
She works in S'pore at NIE, so whenever i go to S'pore for holiday, i'll stay with her. She's quite close to me since i was young. She's not married. For things that happen to me in uni, or in my work now, I can talk to her but i dont like to talk to my parents abt those stuff. Maybe just because she understands more than my parents do. Mayb because she's a lecturer in NIE, she understands uni student (like me) better?
and also, i won't be able to study in Australia without her financial support.

but last week, i started to get a bit frustrated with her. I know i shouldn't. coz all she did was, giving me advise on some of the what i would call 'common-sense' stuff, or things that i've already knew or thought of. I have this problem as well when my parents came end of last year, for my graduation! :(
whole week last week, i woke up early to go to the lab early, to avoid any potential conflict, not because i i'm so hardworking.

then last weekend, it became slightly better, when i tell myself that she's going back soon. and i should be good.
So this week was good, so far. I took half day off Tuesday, to bring her out.

sigh... now i'm feeling a bit sad. It's always like this.