I'm lost!!!

Oh no!!!!
I'm LOST!!!
I'm lost in my own world!
I'm not as self-discipline that i were before.

I think it's because of the long 'swot vac' that i have before my first paper.

I SHOULD be studying!
But I can't concentrate, can't get into the 'mood' of studying!!
aih....

A walk through my mind...

Had to walk back home from Swanston st after the lunch because i missed the tram.
well, it was a good walk i should say...
been thinking abt something throughout the 20 mins walk.

it's abt me and myself...
我觉得我‘太过’知道自己要的是什么，知道自己要走的路是什么。
或许是太早做了决定，自己就不去尝试其他的东西。

比如说早在上大学前就想好，将来要读genetics，因为希望能'cure' genetics disease。
所以现在选明年的 stream 时都没有怎么‘需要’考虑其他的 options。或许应该说我的 2nd year subjects 也不允许我拿 6 out of 11 的选择。
这到底是好事还是不好呢？我到底有没有选错？

这只是其中一个例子。还有其他的事情也是如此。
到底‘太早’make up my mind 是好还是坏？

well, 如果 outcome turn out to be good, then 是好事。
但现在很多事我都还看不到结果的。
那种一直在想，一直在猜的感觉不好受啊！
甚至在还没看到结果之前就已经在开始后悔当初的果断。
唉...

很多事情都不在我们自己掌控的范围内，
很多时候都不知道明天会发生什么事情。
人每天都在变，思想也是如此。
所以我是不是应该给其他 options 一个机会？

当然，我还是相信有些事情，first instinct 是对的。

所以现在只能告诉自己，
当初做的决定是有原因的。
要相信自己的决定...

-last day of 2nd year-

Yesterday was my last day of uni.
Which means 'holiday' had started. but this holiday is for studying. :(
During the 2-hour break, few of us went to a lecture theatre which has a piano in it. hehe! that was the first time i played piano since i came over from KL in Feb this year! :)

6 of us went for a dinner, a end-of-2nd year + farewell to SC dinner. She's goin off for exchange in California next year first sem.

Dunno why... don't feel like talking throughout the dinner. Sorry... Can't help it... just don't know wat to say, a bit anti-social. but i still enjoy listening to ppl talking...

wat an sms!

wanna share this sms i recieved from an unknown person today.. haha!!

that person was saying that he/she has the post coital munchies and it's all 'my' fault! -_-"

then minutes later, another sms from that same person saying it was a wrong msg. -_-"

Help!!!

Everytime, after anything, big or small had happened to me, I'll keep thinking abt it until I hv someone to talk to abt wat had happened.

Just like today, went for an interview for the next year's CTG production. I kept thinking back what i've said in the 15 mins interview. until now!! that's almost 2 hours since it ended! Just can't get it off my brain!! and i can't focus on my pathology!!

well, i had a few interviews in my life, not that many, still 'countable'. haha! first, that's the interview for CTG in my first year, then the one for end of 1st year chem vacation research project,then another CTG interview in last sem, and then the part-time job at St Cinnamon. among all those, for the 1st 2 interviews and the one for St Cinnamon, I don't remember myself recalling and regretting abt wat i've said or wat i should have said during the interview.
How come? not that i don't want those position/ job i've in-ed for, not becoz i hv frens to talk to abt the interviews... mayb i'm still not mature enough to 'analyse' things?! hmm... dunno...

can't wait for the clock to strike 8pm! so that i can call someone to talk. haha!!

ARGH!!!

Have been working hard to keep up with my far behind lectures!! That's part of my study plan for the big exam...
Can't wait for the exam to finish!!

and I'm planning to go S'pore in Jan! Yay!!
I'm excited abt it.. haha!
To visit my high school frens and my aunt there. :)
My GRAND PLAN is... go New Year countdown with them, celebrate 2 21st b'days and a 20th b'day (did i miss out anyone?!)
That'll be fun fun fun!!!

Ok... that's just my PLAN... dunno if it works...

Alright, enough for that... need to head back to neuro now...
bla bla bla...

Moody...

A fren from my course had decided to withdraw from the course.
She's leaving next week and really hope that she'll be back in Melb uni next year again!
Will miss the time we spent eating nano-nano in lectures and library;
having lunch in union house;
and the smile on your face wherever you go...
Take good care of yourself in S'pore!! Don't let anyone worry abt you!

Grgh....

Sometimes (like now) just don't understand why some ppl like to make things complicated!!!!
When u can do it yourself, why asking someone else who has no idea wat's happening to do it?! Grgh....
You are just troubling other ppl!! >_<


Well, had my last test before the exam for this sem. It wasn't too bad i think, except some careless mistakes?!
Anyway, time to keep up with my readings and then final exam in Nov!!