the 3 bad things i see in myself

Being picky is really bad!
u'll get irritated easily.. too easily. even by a small action (eg. forgot to switch off the light) done by other ppl.
and ur mood will be affected
then ppl around u will be wondering wat happened to u

Being too 'logical' is bad too!
u'll think and consider things from many different aspects and u'll make everything complicated.

Being too sensitive on what other ppl thinks about urself is bad too!
u'll worry abt the impression of u in other ppl's mind
and if u THINK things aren't right, u'll be very 烦 and keep thinking/tracking back wat had happened, keep 'analysing' wat might went wrong. bla bla bla...

wat der!!

ish!!!
kena ffk (means 'put aeroplane' by ppl) this morning!
i only had 3 hours sleep and had to wake up at 8am for the stupid orientation for my summer studentship. My orientation was suppose to be at 10am, but the letter says i have to be there at 9.30am to settle my paperwork. So i reach there at 9.25am sharp. the person who arranged my orientation (Beryl) told me to come back at 1.30pm because the lab manager (Michelle) who is suppose to brief me had arranged for my orientation at 1.30pm in her diary! and for 10am, i'm the only student, for 1.30pm, there's another student coming in as well. Beryl was very polite and said sorry a few times about that while for Michelle, not at all! i have the impression that she doesnt think it's her (or their) mistake and i have to come back in 3 and a half hours time for her convinience. she doesn't seem to have other important stuff to do and can't take me alone for orientation in the morning because she did say that it's better for me to join the other student together at 1.30pm. :S

so now, i'm in union house comp lab, filling up my honours application forms while on msn and now blogging.
sien... my grand plan for today was actually.... after orientation, go uni hand in my honours application form for genetics department (closing date is today) and the go home and sleep (instead of goin to Bridge Rd shopping with a fren)! but now... 'half day hanging', dont want to go home coz hv to come back soon so can't really sleep also. noone to kacau in uni...
sigh... think i might end up lepak-ing in the city until it's time to go to the orientation. >.<
and my lunch too! planned to go home eat my leftover pasta (since day before yday) but now...!!

Childhood memories

wah!! spent more than 7 hours scanning more than 240 childhood photos of me and my bros (well, mostly are mine lar) into the comp and then putting the original hard copies into new photo albums.
really thankful to my parents that they took so many photos of us when we were young. all the memories are in the photos. without the photos, i dont remember a thing!
i brought them over to melb becoz some of the photos we had at home started to 发霉! so i want to have a soft copy at least to keep... forever.
looking at those photos... only know that i was so cute when i was really small. :P
but after entering primary school, i dont look cute anymore lor. haha!
and looking at the photos of my grandparents made me a bit teary. and also found that my dad dont usually smile when taking photos. that was back then. now he has improvement :)

photos are really good as memory of things that had happened.
that's why i love taking pics, with and without ppl. we only have limited 'memory space'. can't remember every single thing, place or ppl.
digital camera is really a good invention! :P

exam finished. but...

although i've finished my exams, but most of my friends are still hving theirs. so... aih... how to enjoy?! noone to 'play' with. :(

yday after finish exam, wanted to msg ppl to say how relieved i was but think think... ppl are still hving exam so not really nice to msg them telling how happy you are :(

yday's ppr was tough! after i finished the paper, i was there calculating the scores whether i can pass the ppr. sad case... i dont usually sit there during exams, adding up the marks and stuff. and this time, really scared for not passing the subject!
then, went to city, bought bday card for my wai po. i love cards. i love looking through cards, choosing the best card for the person. and i saw this nice bday card and i just bought it coz it looks nice. :)
yday's weather was crazy, rain, hail, rain, stop, rain, stop...
my exam was at wilson hall, i was sitting at the 2nd row from the door. as ppl opened the door, can feel the cold wind from outside.
went to see myer window. the characters are quite cute but some of them are a bit 'cacat', needs to be fixed up.

was looking at the honours applications last night...
it's either i think too much or really i'm having a problem here.
especially after that last ppr, i dont hv much confident in getting the project i want. which is the one at mcri. i wanted to apply for 3 from pediatrics dep (MCRI), 1 from pathology dep (petermac) and 1 from genetics dep (petermac+genetics co-supervision). then looking at the blanks on the forms (we're allowed to put in more than 3 projects on one departmental application form). filling only one for patho and genetics is risky. means if i dont get that one means dont get at all from that department. so how if i can't get any from MCRI, not even 1 of the 3? how?! mcri is the hardest one to get in... highest required marks.
so i was a bit panick that time, read through other projects in genetics dep, found 2 quite inetersted ones. after all the hesitation, i emailed that supervisor to ask for appointment to ask him things abt his projects. but until now he din reply me :( it's either
he din check email (unlikely hor) or
he thinks this student is so last minute (closing date for genetics dep is on monday) so just ignore. :(
sigh... how how how?! should i just call his office tmr?
or just go: fine... i'll just apply only 1 project for that department. :S
sien...

and choosing between doin hons in uni vs research institutions outside uni is also an espect to think of.
and also need to consider how the supervisor is.. whether he's a considerate person or he's a 'make u work like hell' type of supervisor?
and also other ppl in the labs, whether they are nice ppl etc...
and whether the project is 'workable'. as in... whether will hv result at the end of the 10 months.
and also the coursework.

am i thinking too much? should i just pick the topic i'm interested in and think... i need to learn to deal with different kinds of ppl in the society and just give it a go?


and yup.. it's holiday for me now. which means i need to do some '亲善大使' work which is to call my uncle (who is in melb) and say hello, update him a bit etc...
aih....
i dont like to call him coz i dunno wat to say to him. adult world is complicated. sometimes some things shouldn't be said...
sometimes ppl back home will ask if i call him once in a while... but i'll think... why dont he call me? or his sons (my cousins) call me or even a hello at msn?!

even another uncle and aunty in melbourne, although we're not related (they're just frens of my other uncle), they'll email me sometimes to say hi and stuff, they even called me out for dinner when their son who is working in HK came to melb. they emailed me to let me know and say bye before they go to HK and Msia for holiday for 1 month. i was really touched when they treated me well although they dont really know me.

i'm really tired of 'acting' in front of them, every words need to go through my brain for a few times before said.
i hvn't been talking to my uncle for more than half a year liao. last year, and the years before i still call him once each semester, which is during uni holidays. so when uni holidays start, i'll be like... 'aih... need to call uncle liao'

mum and dad are flying off KL to sydney now. ya.. they're in KLIA now. and i dont think my uncle knows they're coming and our holiday plan to NZ and my summer studentship stuff too. i want him to know before my parents come, before we leave for NZ.
hmm...
wanted to call him last nite. but was watching 'smile pasta' until i remember, it was 12am already.
okok.. i'll call tmr... after mum and dad arrive in the morning, then at least i hv things to say like... 'my parents just arrived in syd this morning' (hope it wont be too surprising for him).

:P

oh.. a note to add here... in the series, 张栋梁 and the other guy are brothers. YeeFei thought the mv of 北极星的眼泪 is gayish! (coz she doesn't know the storyline :P)

張棟樑 - 就微笑了

another nice one.. :)

王心凌 - 黄昏晓

another nice song from the drama series.

motivation! come back!!

lack of motivation now... :(
this one last subj is hard... and the fact that it contributes 50% (not 55% as i mentioned before) to the sibj makes me lose motivation to study as hard as i did for other subj.
sien sien sien...
this year's exam question format will be different from the past. so dunno what type of questions to expect :(
AHHHHH!!!
2 more days before wed!!
scared!!

张栋梁 - 北极星的眼泪

got to know this song from a taiwanese series - 微笑pasta. the drama series was actually recommeded to me by my mum! haha!

oh.. a note to add here... in the series, that 2 guys are brothers. YeeFei thought the mv is gayish! (coz she doesn't know the storyline :P)

第17届金曲奖孙燕姿表演

saw this from a fren's blog. quite nice

1 to go!!

whee... one more ppr to go!! yesh!!
cant wait for holidays to come!!
just got email from my aunt and she's inviting me and my bro to visit her in s'pore during christmas. hopefully bro wants to go then i can go too :D

wah.. .so many things to do during this coming holiday...
first thing is... fill up and hand in my honours application lar... so many forms to fill in coz i'm applying for a few departments. well, honours in science (yea.. too bad no honours in biomed) works like this... each departments have diffr projects, and we can submit application to as many departments as we want. then wait for their offer and accept the offer.
after that, enjoy holiday before my parents come. haha!
hopefully ppl out there after finish their exams still remember me har.. :D
then to NZ on 25th Nov.. oh ya... reminds me of doing research abt place to visit in NZ, plan the trip. can't leave that for my bro. he hasn't even book the car rental yet! that's his job as i've booked all the accomodation and get all flight tix settled.
then come back from NZ on the 5th, spend time with my parents for a few days... then start work lor... on 8th Dec.
then grad on 14th Dec. :D
oh .. before that... uni results will be out in early dec.
then go back to m'sia on 21st dec.
hope to go to s'pore during christmas (hmm .. but that means i wont be in kl for grace's bday :S)
then come back melb early jan, start work again.... till end of first week of feb.
then depends which honours project i get, either start honours straight away (5th Feb) or mid feb.
so that's my GRAND PLAN for my summer 'holiday'

okok... enough day-dreaming... study study...
need to clear my table first. ya.. during exams, i like to write notes on my table (which is white colour) with pencil of course. then i'll put away all the stuff for funcitonal genomics.
it's time for EVOLUTION!! yup... my next exam is on Genomes and Evolution. sounds very theory hor... ya... it is. quite interesting if you get it. but the thing is i still dont get it! :S
55% of the marks on this exam. dont think i'll get H1 for this subj d coz my assignments (45% of the subj marks) is not as good. :( anyway, fingers crossed! if i do well in the exam, there's still hope :D

How smart am I!! haha!!

haha... recieved this email from a friend (i shall not name him here) with a link abt 'crush calculator' the email goes like this:

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/592887179
omg you guys have to try this....its real good....

so i went on to click that link and it brought me to this page, asking me to type in my name and the name(s) of my crush (can enter up to 3). I did not type in anything as i feel something fishy is going on. so i cut the front bit of the url and paste to a new window then press enter.
and... ta daa... BINGO! it IS a prank!! from a fren (of course i know who is he)
apparently it's a 'test' you can use on your friends or even your bf/gf (says on that website) to see if they are really true to you. u'll get to know what are the names they put in when you log into their 'members' page'. they'll notify you when ur frens are fooled. 'dooing' -_-

hmm...

Why ppl seems to be so free today? Is it a public holiday today?
went to uni for past year exam ppr discussion with some friends. then we went to Marks for lunch. ya... as usual, their survice is not as good but their tangy chicken supreme pizza is the best pizza! today we tried their dip and it's nice too!
ok, then i went to the city to do some grocery shopping. and so many ppl are on the street today! not just students, but older ppl and also mothers with their young kids... feels like today's a weekend or a public holiday! or is melbourne cup today? thought it's tmr? hm...

Another challenge before the other starts

Just came back from interviewing ppl for next yr's canto production.
yup.. that's one of the job for assistant production manmager
i dunno if i'm killing myself for applying and getting that position coz next yr i'm doin honours.
but haih... suan le lar... just take it and 拼 to the max lar!
and the fact that the other APM is fred and the PM is JingYing does motivate me up a bit, this combination seems 'workable' :) finger crossed!!

pressure is on!!

wah.. now only i really realise that results is very important when comes to applying stuff like honours project and as ur first impression for ur 'potential supervisors'. not that before this i always thought that results are not important, although good results do not give you a place in UROP or summer studentship (eg in PeterMac), but the impression of being a good uni student (in terms of results) is really important in this realistic world!
as some of you who read my previous blogs will know what happened in UROP. but why would i say that good result doesn't guarantee you a place in petermac summer studenship? coz for me, this time i got this studentship, a big part is coz of my luck. coz applicants are given (i dunno how they choose lar) to supervisors to be interviewed. and i'm luckiy enough to get interviewed by a supervisor who thinks i'm suitable for his project. coz like one of my frens, although her results is very good, she didn't get her project becoz there's someone else (also one of our frens) who is more suitable and experience in that particular aspect that the supervisor is looking for.
and now i'm looking for honours projects. one of the supervisors that i emailed to for making appointment to see him, actually replied my email by only asking me: 'if possible, can you pls send me your CV and academic transcript.'
and the other supervisor that i had made appointment to see him, well, i met him (and he still remembers me) from the honours open day. but he still asked me to send him my academic transcript before i went to see him. and today, another supervisor in MCRI, well this one's better haha. coz he still sees me and explains a lot to me and only ask for my academic transcript at the end of our meeting. :)
so far, i like the project that i just went to meet the supervisor at mcri. he is so nice lor... and according to his PhD student that i met there, his style of supervision sounds good to me. but still, options are open coz i'm seeing another 2 supervisors later this week.

pressure is on coz...
the fact that i only hv 2 papers and is well-spread out means i have no reason to not do well in the exams!!
and i really need to get good results to get the honours project i want.
dun want to screw up my effort in other semester and throughout this semester. well, there's nothing i can do for the other 2 subjects now coz the assesments are all done by now. 7 best 3rd year subj results are taken into consideration when applying honours. so, i need at least 3 good results this semester!!

End of ugrad

There goes my final day in uni!!
We had a 25% test yday and tht was the only 'class' i went yday coz i had skipped the earlier lec to do my assignments and some last minute revision for the test.
After finishing the test, before handing in the ppr, our core subj coordinator who was there to conduct the exam gave a few words abt us finishing our 3 yrs course. i was so touched lor... trying hard to hold back the tears. then after we left the lec theatre, saw other ppl taking pics. well, i had taken some pics with some of my biomed frens before the test started. then had to rush to the library (1st floor comp lab in bailieu) to finish up my assignment which is due 2 hours later.

I never used that comp lab before in my entire uni life before last week! haha! should have found that place earlier!

this week had been my crazy week... presentation, assignment, project report and test. my biological clock had been working up-side-down. had been sleeping at 4 or 5 in the morning for few days this week. well, last week of uni... work as hard as i can lor (not that i wont do that if it's not the final week of uni).

after handing in the assignment and report, went to meet up with my biomed frens at maxbrenner.

at nite... k-box time!! muahaha!!
we started at 10 something. just me and SW, haha! so syok!
then later on SY came, then Elaine, then LeeYen (with her sister-LeePop), then SamSam. we had 1 special guest and 1 'guest singer' - Alice and Alfred :P.
we sang till 4 something in the morning. thnx to a fren who works there, gave us some really good deal!! unlimited drinks!! how nice of him!!

after k, we went to Doncaster Pancake Parlour that opens 24 hours. we reach there at 5am, had breakfast there!
ya.. my first time there. nice place, nice food, nice frens to chat with.
when i was back at home, it's already almost 7 i think.
wat a happening day. :)
so in holiday mood!!

today woke up at 1 something in the afternoon. went to this Fiesta M'sia at City Square. It's an event for Deepavali and Hari Raya. food stalls, performances and games stalls. when we went there, there was nothin much left. it's almost the end of the event already.
then lepak-lepak in the city to buy fren's bday pressie.

how nice if we had finished our exams!! BUT if we really had finished our exams, most ppl would be either going home or went somewhere else for holiday lar.

oh ya... not to forget mentioning abt this...
my graduation date!! 14th Dec 3.30pm! muahaha!!
that's the date i wanted coz my parents are flying home on the 16th and they couldn't get their flights postponed coz it's all fully-booked.
so now it's all good. :)

光良_-_如果你还爱我(LIVE)

5 days left

ya... 5 days left for my undergrad uni life. :(
dunno how should i do to leave no regrets.
that day, first time ever i went to the comp lab in first floor bailieu lib to book a comp for the discussion of our functional genomics presentation group. feel so 'sua ku' when i failed to scan my own student card. haha!
thought of having lunch in union house every single day coz i think i'll miss having lunch in union hs. but... noone to eat with :( next week ctg have no table during lunch time liao...

PPS

才刚说完觉得自己（还）没有感觉到对produciton 的不舍，没有PPS (post-production syndrome)，
在看完朋友的blog, 再想到今天在学校和朋友提起说她年底毕业后就不要留在澳洲了，眼泪不知不觉地就掉了下来。
再过一个多星期，就是学期结束了。
就不会再像以前那样和coursemates 一起上课，去做 prac, 去library；
不会再像今年以来，在lunch time the table 和他们哈拉一番。
虽然我还会在继续念 honours, 将来的日子会是怎样，真的不知道。
虽然我们都说毕业后还可以约出来见个面，但当大家有各自的生活，各自的忙碌时，真的不知道会怎样了。

散 band 了...

昨晚，我们又为一个CTG production 画上了句点。
虽然不能说是一个完美的句点，但也可说是一个最美的句点。

昨晚的bump-out supper 对我而言，没有像以往的‘好’，感觉就好像平时show 完了以后大家一起去吃个宵夜，只不过人比较多，时间比较晚，大家忙着写booklet。
主要是因为我们那桌是个别叫自己的吃，而不像大家叫菜吃饭的比较有'feel'。
然后我们那桌也没有大家一起的共同话题，
再加上我和我的leader 迟到，当同桌的人都吃完了，我们只吃了一半。

but anyhow, 不知不觉地，这个production 是我再uni的第6个production了（haha！Alice remind me 的）！这个production 是让我最能感觉到我是part of the big family 的。not that 以前的没有，but 这次认识的人比较多，可以说是几乎每一个人,从admin 到 production team 到 casts 都认识了。

well, 现在又是时候回到assignments, tests and presentation 了。
接下来的两个星期又要拼了！
17th Oct Functional Genomics test (5%)
20th Functional Genomics presentation (10%)
24th Experimental genetics project presentation
27th Experimental genetics project report (altogether 40%)
Genes to Phenotype exam (25%)
G & Evolution assignment (10%)