>Crazy week 5<

Finally can have a small break for some 'fresh air'!!
this week is a crazy week for me!!
it started on monday... had the genomes and evolution 'exam' (it's worth 20%!) which i only studied the day before. sad to did that sort of thing... that is so not me! before that, i started studying for all my tests or exams at least few days before the day. but this time.. sigh... anyway, can't blame anyone for that except myself...

then tuesday, annoyed by a friend... i know i shouldn't say she's annoying... but.. is this friend i knew from a subj last sem. although we are in the same course, i din know her until last sem. this sem, we have 3 common subjects. the annoying part is... well, i dont like her 'following' me around in between classes. even walking with her to another lecture when we have the same lectures continuously. i admit that i might not feel that way if it's not her. today is not the first time she hang around with me between classes. i know i shouldn't feel that way coz she did nothing wrong! and she is a nice person in the sense that she doesn't mind sharing things she know with u, and she taught me quite a lot lsat sem on one of my subjects. it's like.. i just dont have a good reason to dont like her. >.< i felt bad for myself. it's one of the 'bad thinking' that i hv... i'll be irritated/annoyed by some ppl just because the way they act, or the way they talk! and i have no other reason to not like them! the worse part is.. they're nice person, they're nice to me, but i just dont like them becoz of their 'style', their personality! and i shouldn't be like that coz i can't expect everyone in this world to act/talk like me, right?! sigh...
then at nite, went to the Genetics department dinner. it was at the University House in uni. It's a semi-formal dinner, where 306 and 304 students are invited, and also the lecturers, postgrad and honours students from the department. That was my first time going to this kind of 'serious' dinner. haha! well, good to experience though... had to say that most of the time i was listening instead of joining in the chat with other ppl on my table (as what i usually do even when goin out with a bunch of frens), mayb coz frequency not too similar? we were chatting abt some 'science-related stuff' and of course other casual stuff too. and the dinner started at 730pm, but when i got home, it was abt 1130 already..

wednesday... went to the open day at PeterMac at 5pm. before that, i quite like the place so was very looking fwd to the openday. well, not many ppl went though... only.. around 20 students? (well, they'll hv another open day in Sep) conclusion is.. the ppl there are more friendly that those at WEHI. (oops.. dont think any ppl from WEHI will be reading this... anyway, no offence!!) and the projects there interest me more than those at WEHI. then, reach home almost 730. then tried hard to stay concentrate on doing those after-lecture-notes for the exam on friday. but had to go to bed early coz can't concentrate at all... too tired..

Thurs morning... woke up early at 8am to continue last nite's work. went to uni for 11am class. met our supervisor of the project on experimental genetics. and we were given an assignment which comprise 25% marks of the project, due on 8th sep. :( yup, it's a project... mentioning abt that... i'm quite pissed when the fren i mentioned earlier abt tuesday... we were at the library during the break between lecs. i was doing my assignment for my bioinfo project. it's a group work and i'm meeting my group mate later that day so had to do my part of the work. so she asked me what was i doin... and i said that's the assignment for my bioinfo project. and u know wat, her reaction was like: 'u have a project?!' i'm like... why can't i have one?!!! many ppl have one this sem! super 'bu shuang' man!! i'm sensitive to the words 'project' and 'urop' these days coz ... aih... another long story...
at the mid of my second year, me and a few frens were applying for urop, which is like a research work for undergrad students. u get to work in a research lab and get paid for it. well, i dint get in, even for the interview. another fren, whose results are far far better than us also din get in for the interview. both of us were disappointed... until now, i'm still disappointed and still dunno why both of us got rejected. i know that results do not mean everything. but how can they just reject her based on that application letter and her brilliant results?! that is just not fair. i mentioned abt that to a lecturer last week and he said that... sometimes that's called networking... but but.. that's just not fair! we were still 2nd year, wat kind of networking u expect from us?! and then this year, 2 of our frens got the job. of course, congrats to them!! but i felt a bit down and really left out when they were talking abt the stuff they're doin in urop. and also with another fren who also has a project on for one of her subjects. whenever the 3 of them are talking abt their research stuff... i so want to run away. again, i know that there's no reason for them to avoid talking abt those stuff in front of me. and i shouldn't act that way. but i felt the gap between us... i feel that we are getting farther apart nowadays... :( it's our final semester together in uni now... and i really dun want to lose this group of frens. but ever since this sem, when 2 of them came back from exchange, i felt left out now... last 2 years, we (not just the 3 frens i mentioned, but more of the 1 of them plus another 2) were together most of them time in uni, having so much common topics to talk abt.
i think this happens coz i hv another new circle of frens in uni and they dont overlap with them in my course. and i dunno how to balance between them. so i tend to neglect them. :(

thurs nite... went for the open day at StVincent's. really like some of their projects. and the ppl there seems quite nice too.. will find out more after i clear most of my tests and assignemts. then, went for Sarah's graduation. yup... the last graduation i'm attending before my batch's coming up this dac. ahhh!!! time flies!!! then went home.. study like mad for today's exam (25% arr!!) scared and so worried abt the exam!

this morning, woke up at 8am, study study.. skip the 10am lec. yup.. this is my first time skipping my lecture 'consciously' haha! the exam is at 1pm, and i only hv that 10am lecture before that. so... yea... and i think it is absolutely worth it to skip it. :D
now... looking at the assignment on my desk... due on monday.. 500 words report for the bioinfo project.. yes! it's a PROJECT!!! and it says so on our sheet! >.<
sien... just now after class, i so dont feel like coming home.. coz need to do work when i come back. but anyway, need to do it lar...

i'm sure next week will be another crazy week for me...
helping out with festival of nation, Sam's 21st, oh.. and still thinking if i should apply for a summer work at Murdoch, closing on 1st Sep., then the following week will hv 1 test, 2 assignments and a presentation in that same week!! >.< die die lar... never been this busy in my entire uni life!!

talking abt summer work.. another disappointment from PeterMac summer scholarship :( it says we will be notified this week if are short-listed for the interview... sigh...