Sunday, March 28, 2010

又是一个无聊的周日
要是有labwork, 我一定又跑去当一天的免费劳工。
所以今天就被逼乖乖地在家呆了一天
不想出去逛,因为city已经被我在前几天都cover了七七八八,没什么想看的了,也不想让自己又有机会花钱 :$

最近喜欢去 无名小站 看别人的blog,尤其是艺人的blog

我一向不太去看星座的东西,因为我认为怎么可能把复杂的人类轻易地归类成12种呢?
但今天我google了‘星座’first hit 进去再继续link, 看到了:
成也魔羯败也魔羯(图)http://www.sina.com.cn
2010年02月05日 14:17 新浪星座

...魔羯真是一个十分敏感的星座,他能够通过一件小事看透一个人,也十分了解什么是好的,什么是适合社会的,同时,魔羯又是一个极其爱自我怀疑的星座,他清楚自己的阴暗气质,所以往往不敢完全肯定自己的分析。所以,魔羯其实很容易上当受骗,也很容易受伤害。可是,另一方面,因为他们天生的敏感,也很容易察觉到自己被骗了,这时他们极端的性格再次发挥作用:当他们看到别人表现出好的一面时,对别人的信任是绝对的,不参杂的;而当他们发现,即使是一件为不足道的小事上的欺骗,他们就绝不会再信任了。
... 和魔羯接触过的人都会认为他们脾气很好 (i don't think so),好的似乎发傻。其实他们并不是脾气好,只是他们很会装,他们了解身边的朋友的性格,所以他们在包容对方,就算你做了什么过分的事,他们也早就想好对方为什么会这样做。
  最明显一点,你们可以去看看身边魔羯的朋友,无论你怎么做做什么,魔羯都不会很惊讶的,其实他们已经知道你为什么会这样了。
  魔羯的人都很没有安全感,他们喜欢在别人面前装傻。
  他们有装傻的天赋,他们认为只有傻子才会不牵扯到任何伤害,与其做一个聪明的人,不如当一个傻子平凡而又随意。
...魔羯很珍惜朋友,他们最希望获得朋友的信任,如果从一个朋友那里得不到信任,他不会再与这个朋友交往下去。
...魔羯非常重视人与人之间的规则,就是所谓的君子可以欺之以方。一旦魔羯发现大家都不遵守规则,只是拿规则来限制自己的时候,经过内心痛苦挣扎之后,魔羯就会将所有感情和软弱一脚踹开。当初他有多大的克制力让自己遵守规则,那么现在的魔羯就有多强的铁腕来自己制定规则。
... 魔羯像狼,独断、机警、诡诈、阴险、执着、冷傲,无一不在魔羯身上体现。
爱情方面魔羯很少会主动。
  更惨的是,能让他们爱上的人也可能是百年难得一遇……结果就是……也许会孤独终老。(>.<)

  不是物质,不是实际。爱情婚姻上,是对自己和对方的要求很高,精神层面尤甚。宁缺勿滥。(absolutely spot on)
  如果他爱你,你就什么都不用做,因为他都会帮你做;如果他不爱你,你也什么都不用做,因为做了也没用。
  不容易投入一份感情,一旦投入了就是全身心的。

好无奈哦!

为什么一个人去电影院看戏感觉会怪怪的?
没有人规定去电影院一定要多过一个人去,可是我还是过不了自己那关。:S
三/四年前我一个人去看了DaVinciCode,在快要下画的时候去的,那时候的那个session没有多过二十位观众吧,我坐在最后一排中间的位子,和我同一排的,还有另一位中年妇女,还带了自己的被单。也不记得当时自己去看的感觉是怎样的了。
可是我还是做不到第二次。
因为朋友的兴趣不同,时间难乔,比较难找人一起看戏了 :(

Friday, March 26, 2010

so happen to walk into a shop just now, and bought myself two pieces of clothings, at a total of $64.90
but i can't get myself to pay $75 for a key pouch which i've been eyeing at for almost 4 months, excluding the internet browsing!!! :S

and, a key pouch will probably last me longer than those 2 clothes. plus i use the key pouch every single day whereas i don't wear those 2 clothings everyday :S

mayb because the key pouch is from a brand of one of the 'luxurious goods', well, semi-luxurious lar, which made me think it's un-neccessary?

this key pouch, is one of the 'irrational things to do and will make me happy' from the previous post i wrote here.

hmm.... perhaps it's not too late for a belated bday present for myself ;)

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

小S 把演艺圈的八卦`秘密和大S分享,
那,我可以把朋友的八卦`秘密和谁分享呢??

我忍。。。 >.< .

Monday, March 22, 2010



我是看《芝麻街》长大的 :)

Saturday, March 20, 2010

无端端

突然发现,从下个月到八月份,每个月都有一个值得我期待的事情 :)

四月份
林俊杰演唱会
yes! bought tix!!! and very happy with the seats we've got :)
and on the day i planned to get tix from the official ticketing place, my colleague fwd me an email, monash chinese student society selling those tix at $10 cheaper, more than 5 tix bought can get a free AUTOGRAPHED CD.
so i called the person and so happen that she's in the city that day. so i got the tix and the cd and a poster from her that same day after work.
eventhough there are a few dodgy-ness about the cd, but i'm just going to ignore that and believe it's a genuine one. lol.



checked the seating plan, those seat numbers look right to me :$

五月份
FAME the musical with my colleagues :)
Simone started organising this few weeks ago. eventhough this musical is not on my priority list this year, since it's a musical and Fame is a classic(?) so, wouldn't mind going at all

六月份
brisbane to visit my famiy :)
haven't told my supervisor about taking a week off for this, but i'm sure he'll be fine with that. he never turn down any of my leave so far, all he said last time was, i'm entitled to have 20days off a year.

七月份
Marry Poppins the musical!
this is on my priority list. bought tix in jan
looking fwd to this since last year :$ so it better be good! haha

八月份
SinYee my best friend in highschool is coming to melb for a holiday
will be staying with me for a few days, all weekdays tho :S
told her to have at least a weekend in melb but well, either she forgot or can't get the tix. but then she's going to syd after melb on a weekend.
o well... will see what i can do.



those are my 'highlight of the month' up till august.
i want more :)

加油!

usualy when i listen to a song, i will only remember the melody, but don't even listen to the lyrics. so usually the first time i see the lyrics is from the ktv version.

since 无端端 got this 林俊杰 - 100天 CD for free (wil explain how later), i picked up the booklet and hv a close look at the lyrics while listening to the song.
I like this one:

<加油!>
最近你好吗 少了一点微笑
说的话有点少 最近我也不好
全世界都在逆转
人开始反向思考

发现你爱的人到处跑
昨晚刚升职 今天被炒
莫名其妙 谁会知道
是不是上天开的玩笑
地震时 你想和谁拥抱
什么是生命中的美好
轻易放掉 却不知道
幸福就在下一个转角
说一声加油 一切更美好
所有的悲伤 请往边靠
曾经流过的泪 湿了伤口就让
阳光晒干而褪
这一种加油 人人都需要
手牵手我们一起赛跑
说好不见不散 每分每秒守候你到老

The beat goes on 时间它一直走
就像是 Life goes on 这过程或许痛
不管顺流或逆流 你总得抬起头
让我们一起走 走过艰难和困惑

关关是难关 但我们关关过
雨后天晴的阳光在天空闪闪
所出现了彩虹 忽然间我们才懂
如果这是一场马拉松 那我们一起加油

Sunday, March 14, 2010

i want to do something irrational but will make me happy >.<

eg ...

fly to somewhere for a weekend, or

buy something i like but is unnecessary

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

complaining again

basically i hang out most with 3 groups of friends...

group A,
80% of our outings/gatherings were initiated and organised by me. and a pesky scientist like me are now doing a little experiment, i'm not going to initiate any gathering from now on, no matter how much i miss them or how bored i am :S
but i can't say that they don't care about me or us each other. coz, we go to each others' graduation, most of them remember my bday, we can talk about almost everything, they all showed effort (to come) when i organised bday gatherings, and they did think of me when they have some free tix :(

group B,
so far we're doing quite well, one gathering every month, everyone took turns to organise. except that this year's cny, i waited (on purpose) to see if anyone is organising the cny dinner/lunch/watever, until it was abt 5 days before cny and i couldn't tahan anymore and end up organising a dinner with them. :(

group C,
half of the ppl in this group do organise meet-ups and gatherings, whereas the other half never. :S
feel bit weird with that other half of this group. we do ask them out together but why they never do it the other way round? coz they know the other half will? or they just don't bother to?


everyone has a different role among their friends.
but i'm tired of being the active one, until i started to think whether they actually care abt each other.
okok, i'm sure they care, mayb they're just busy and have other friends around who don't complain like i do.
too bad... new friends are hard to find nowadays :S

Saturday, March 06, 2010

好一句‘家里没教’!
帮我息了不少怒,就除了那些‘我家也没教’的 :S

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要是我的英文也可以像我的‘台湾华语’这样进步就好了
should watch more tv then :P

Thursday, March 04, 2010

sigh...
80% not gg to an international conference this year. :(
just had my end of 2nd year review meeting with my supervisors.
my supervisor said it's better for me to go to one early or mid next yr instead of the one i wanted to go to this year.
reasons are very understandable and reasonable.
i completely understand how is it like going to a conference with a poster without a conclusion. have been to 3 national conferences so far and all of my 3 posters are very similar and miserable.
unless miracle happens, it's unlikely that i'll have a good abstract to be submitted in june for the nov conference :(
sien...

first there's the ESHG conference in june, then this ASHG in nov. all disappointments :S
or should i be optimistic and keep my fingers crossed that the miracle will happen before june?!

looking at the timeline of my phd progress,
i should start intensive writing of my thesis around this time next year,
and submit it before sept next year.
sounds very scary!! it's going to happen so so soon
because nowadays uni is more strict with phd students applying for 2nd extension, i should aim to hand in by the end of my 3.5 years
which is good in a way coz i just CAN'T WAIT to graduate!!
but on the other hand, going out to the world on my own as a postdoc just sound so scary. the title of being a Postdoc is just too big too heavy.
still can't imagine myself as a postdoc in a lab.

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i'm tired of myself being paranoid and pessimistic most of the time
and i'm also annoyed by ppl around me who are not mindful abt what's happening around them or even in front of them!
especialy when that affects my convinience. >.<

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for the past 2 - 3 weeks, i've been to a doctor (in order to get referred to), an eye specialist, a dental appointment and nearly to a dermatologist
>.<
cut the long story short,
my eyes are fine, well apparently the problem i'm having is normal for highly myopic ppl like me but not most others :S
but the feeling that something really bad is happening to my eyes that i could lose my eyesight was really really really bad. that was before i went to see the eye specialist. He was very optimistic and said there's nothing i can do, if it's going to happen, it will happen. so just enjoy life.

and i'm not finished with my dental 'adventure' yet
but i can still afford to put it aside for the moment, due to financial reason.

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ok... i feel a little bit better now
time for dinner... indomee.

Monday, February 22, 2010

yesterday (sunday),
went to lab in the morning, for abt 1.5 hours.
then it was one something pm i think,
went to vicmart, wanted to hv some spanish doughnuts coz i hdn't had lunch and need some sugar, so decided to get 3 before i even reach the stall.
at the doughnut stall, the guy was telling the lady in front of me she has to wait for a little while for her 7 (or 9? can't rmb) doughnuts to be ready.
then he told me to wait for 1 minute (yes he said 'one minute') straight away.
so i took out my $3 coins, waited...
10 secs later, a guy came, he got asked how many he wants, he said 2.
and so he got 2 doughnuts plus 1 for free!
the point is not that he got a free doughnut,
but there were at least 3 doughnuts sitting there but the guy didn't even ask how many i want.
so i just bushuang
walked away after thinking bushuang-ly for like 3 secs whether i should wait

went to have chocolate ice cream instead eventhough i shoudln't :S


so, am i immature, impatient, or what?!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Feel like learning ice-skating :P
anyone?

There's a new ice skating rink, Icehouse just opened few weeks ago, at Docklands

Saturday, February 13, 2010

2nd time spending cny in melbourne without my family, without red packets, without mahjong and without big family meals
don't remember the first time being this miserable, tht was 3 years ago, after my 3rd year ugrad, because my honours started earlier than other departments (and normal uni semestr). can't rmb how was it like anymore.
parts of melbourne was flooding on thursday, both of my parents and my aunt called from overseas to make sure i'm alright. (yes, mum and dad called separately) T_T

adding on to my 'new years resolution':
never spend cny without my family ever again.
so either go home, or go to my brother's place!
even if it's on a weekday (which usually is i think), take leave! don't care!
i don't take xmas/new year off anyway, so i deserve this holiday.

i don't go back for cny this year is because i just came back in early dec after going back for my bro's wedding. so bro's wedding vs cny, if you are to pick one, which one to choose? of course the first one, right?!
so it's a bit too frequent to go back again, in terms of money spent on airfare, and days taken off work. i need to save up some days off for the holiday after the conference which i really really want to go in nov.

good that i'm at least going to a conference on sunday, which is the first day of cny. then i'll be surrounded by ppl, won't feel so lonely.
but i'll hv to make myself occupied at home the night before when other ppl are happily having their reunion dinner home sweet home :(
will have opening ceremony of the winter olympics on tv with me, while packing up and preparing myself for tmr's conference :)

Sunday, February 07, 2010

What's bothering me...

Chern 帧 ~ said:
u know wat
i was so excited abt this conference in DC in early nov
then few days ago so happen that i read the newspaper online, saw that there MIGHT be a terrorist threat in the US in the next 6 months or so
then i panic liao
thinking whether i shoud still go to the conf or not!
see i don't read the newspaper everyday
but when i read it that day, i saw that news

My friend said:
u do know that the risk of a terrorist attack is way wayyyyyy lower then an accident on the road?

Chern 帧 ~ said:
i know
but
aiya dunno leh
but if i do go to the conference, will that increase my risk?
(talking to an actuarist ha) haha

My friend said:
lol meh it will increase by a tiny weeney amount

Chern 帧 ~ said:
aih
and i'm a paranoid person ar
u know i was even worried abt the swine flu vaccine last time!

My friend said:
exactly!
ppl should stop being paranoid

Chern 帧 ~ said:
but i can't help it!
i've always been paranoid
i think a lot

My friend said:
well relax la
need to learn to relax a bit

Chern 帧 ~ said:
but then
tht's wat a scientist need to be
think a lot

My friend said:
thinks a lot =/= paranoid

Chern 帧 ~ said:
and paranoid so taht they'll be careful abt things an be sure things were done correctly
eii i go shower first
ttyl

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Chern 帧 ~ said:
i think i just cannot pretend i'm very enthu when i find out abt ppl
coz i know too much
like i already know from dunno where/who
then when the person tell me 'in person' i'm like oh... but just cannot gv the reaction
:S

A friend said:
haha

Chern 帧 ~ said:
very sien de leh
dont laugh :(
sometimes i really wish i'm dumb-er
not showing off here
but really
:(
can be a boring person




eh eh don't get offended!!
when i say dumb, i don't mean everyone else is dumb.
and i don't mean that ppl who doesn't know what i knew is considered dumb.
ahh.... hope u know what i mean :$

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i think this blog is just another word document of mine except it's saved online.
because
noone really give me response abt what the thoughts i'm sharing here. yes SHARING without know who else is sharing with me
maybe coz what's written here is too 'heavy' to be commented on?
or maybe noone actually read it (but from the counter, i'm not the only visitor)
or maybe you think there's nothing to be commented on?
:S

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for the first time,
i'm hoping the CNY goes by quickly

Monday, January 25, 2010

Sunday, January 24, 2010

i want to go to the conference in DC!! very very badly!!! AAAAHHHHHHHH

now it's end of jan 2010...
next thing to look fwd to is perhaps the Lorne conference in mid feb. but first i have to 'get through' the family matter... >.<

then it'll be mid june, a trip to brisbane maybe? :)

then mid july, Mary Poppins!

then that's it!!!!!
nothing else to look fwd to!! :(

hopefully there's a trip to the States in oct/nov for me XP


and i want to graduate quickly!!!!!!!!!!!
was talking on the phone with my wai po...
she asked me when i'm graduating T_T
and she wants to see all of us get married T_T

Sunday, January 10, 2010

dad likes my driving license number! lol
quote from mum: 'dad said the number is beautiful!!... (after a few minutes)... can play TOTO also hah! ha!'

i still couldn't believe i passed my driving test

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

now i understand why kids get tired after they cried a lot
but i don't rmb kids get puffy eyes after they cried a lot
:S

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

what a start of 2010 for me...
from the first day of the year, an un-received 'sms delivered' status msg hinted the bad news abt my supervisor,
Denise, who was diagnosed with pancreatic and ovary cancer passed away on sunday.
she's always been in good spirit since the end of 08.
things started to worsen in nov/dec last year, and went down the slope very quickly since then.
she came back to the lab from 2 year potdoc-ing overseas in april when i was doing my hons, then became one of my supervisors since i started phd, which was less than a yr before the diagnosis.
our desks are just next to each other, we shared the same computer, she's always earlier than me, saw her at work every single day. would ask her to go for tea togther (and canny) especially when Erin's not working.
she's always been a cheerful person, always being supportive. even if she might not the best person to supervise this project, i did learn from her, she's the one to go to when i'm in doubt with anything, she's always been a good listener.
i will be ok...
the fact that i won't see someone ever again is not going to slip away from my mind easily...

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another farewell (but will definitely say hi again) happens 2 days after that (which is today)...
late 08, grace went back after she graduated,
then diana in early 09,
then maybelle,
then tzechien,
then yoketheng,
then antyboy,
today shiyang.
i'm only left with abt 2/3 of my close friends in melb.