Sien...

我 ... 又再被证明了
是一个不能在‘紧要关头’做出令自己满意、不后悔的决定的人。
realise 并不足够。
要知道怎么改进才是有用。

想 想 想
难道就是要我做多点仓促的决定后才会改进？
那太不划算了吧 ?!

唉 ...
现在只是想有用 ar？转得回么？

不爽! 罢!
ARGH!!!

HOLIDAY!!

Yay! had my last ppr of the year er... yesterday?! coz it's 1.34 am now. haha!
and had a good dinner at nic's place. :D
thanks to u guys for postponing the dinner till i finish my exam! how nice!!
well... wat to do now?
go out with frens, or even just doin nothing at home, i don't mind haha!
looking forward for SzeSze to come! yay!!

all the best for ppl who still hvn't finish their exams. :)

Duh...

Duh... woke up late this morning!
miss the first hour of revision class.
so just went for 1 hour class and went home before the last hour (coz i think it's not very worth staying).
and i realise that it took me less than 30 mins to walk home from uni!! i always thought it's far but it's actually not too bad.

ok, and i thought of another thing that i can do during my holiday (ya.. started planning alrady)
that is... find out abt dreams... the meaning of those dream ppl (mostly me) had. i'm always curious abt wat are the meaning of those dreams i had.
and i had a bad one last nite. and when i woke up, i went: luckily it's just a dream!

1 down... 2 to go...

Yay! First ppr done!!
Can't wait to get IBS out of my brain! need more space for the coming 2 pprs. have to put both of them in my brain at the same time coz only 1 day in btwn the 2 of them.
ooh... i'm sure time flies as soon as i start my first ppr.
yay! which means, holiday coming soon!!!

well, today... bit disappointed with someone...
ya i know... u can't expect ppl to do the same thing to u like how u treat them. mayb i'm just expecting too much? or i care too much at first?
fine... life's like this.. u can never get things fair and square.
ok, i'm just disappointed, nothing more...

alright, just finish my dinner,
time to stuff things inside my brain now.. hope they all will go to the neocortex, or at least stay in hippocampus till my exams finish! haha!

First ppr... soon...

Woa!! Tmr (err.. i mean today) i'll hv my first ppr!!
At last!! when most ppl finish countdown-ing, 'busy' celebrating, or even 'home-sweet-home' already, I baru start my first ppr!! sad case...
haha
k, i better 'sleep earlier' now... used to sleep after 3am.. but today should sleep earlier like... 2.20 am? haha!
luckily all my pprs are in the afternoon.
all the best to me!! :D

:)

Haven't seen most of my uni frens for weeks now... until today...
SC and Nic came over today and then we had dinner together.
today is my most fun relaxing day since swot vac begins. thanks to the two of them!
when the 3 of us are together, we can be soooo childish!! haha! well, u 2 should know wat i'm talking abt. ;) haha!
and really look forward to next wed!! my last ppr! and nic's dinner! yay!!!
really can't wait for the exams to finish!!!!!!

still on my SWOT vac

well, after the 1st week of exam period, i'm still... '0 down 3 to go'
a bit sien coz still 3 papers ahead of me.
WISH i had my first ppr on the first few days, then ibs on 17th, then genetics on 21st is ok lar.. haha!

well... still struggling in neuro part of IBS. Salute to neuroscience ppl!!!
spent most of my time on neuro this time but still can't remember them.
past year ppr is scaring me!!

done some calculations on my IBS marks after getting the 2nd mid sem test results few days ago. never been 'calculative' before but this time. was on the border line (for getting H1. ya.. i know... don't shoot me on that! haha!) for first sem IBS 1 so bit 'worried?' abt this sem's IBS 2 and since mid sem results sucks!

okok, need to head back to IBS now... blek...

Where are those fans??!!

Yesterday, went to the city, thinking of getting an electrical fan.
BigW, Target... sold out!
few left in Safeway and HN.
i didn't buy at last...
went to Myer to have a look, saw the coolers there... sooooo cooling!!
but it's too exp... so forget it.
well, i think i'll just use the build-in fan in my living room at the meantime and study in the living room... which is even better coz less distraction by this computer! haha!

New element in periodic table

Got this from a fren's frenster bulletin board...


New element in periodic table!

Element : WOMEN

Symbol : WO+

Atomic mass : Accepted as 53.6 Kg;

isotopes: may vary from 40-200 kg.

Occurrence : Copious quantities in all urban areas.

PHYSICAL PROPERTIES
1. Boils at room temperature
2. Freezes without any known reason.
3. Melts if given special treatment.
4. Bitter, if incorrectly used.
5. Sweet as Honey if given a proper treatment. (awww...)

CHEMICAL PROPERTIES
1. Have great affinity for Gold, Silver and a range of precious stones and absorbs great quantities of expensive substances.
2. May explode spontaneously without prior warning and for unknown cause
3. Insoluble in liquids, but activity greatly increases by that.
4. Most powerful money reducing agent known to man. (err... eh.. ehm...)

TESTS
1. Pure specimen turns rosy pink when happy.
2. Turns green when placed behind a better specimen. (oops)

POTENTIAL HAZARD
illegal to possess more than one, although several can be maintained at different locations as long as specimens do not come in direct contact with
each other. (-_-|||)


!! WARNING !! PROLONGED EXPOSURE TO THIS ELEMENT CAN CAUSE SEVERE FINANCIAL HEMORRHAGE AND MENTAL DISTRESS. BE CAUTIOUS (-_-|||)

What a dream...

Hmm... i just woke up 20 mins ago...
this morning 7 something, i woke up suddenly to get my quilt back from the other room coz i had been using a thinner blanket this few days...
then i went back to sleep again... and started to dream abt this... (those in the bracket is wat really is in reality. haha!)

it happened in CHKL, 国字楼 dunno which floor but definitely not the ground floor.
it was the first day of my 高二. haha!
so it's still early, sky was still quite dark (which is true coz we start class at 7.40 but i usually arrive at abt 6.30 and the sky is still quite dark) but many ppl were there already... first day of school gua...
i remember seeing my counsin sis (who is 13 years old or so), her mum, my 2 aunts (they are primary school teachers in Pg).

then i went to the toilet ... and found that there was no more toilet ppr! then i saw this door in that toilet which leads to another room! that's the store room where they keep the new toilet ppr and stuff... haha!

ok.. then something wierd happened...

the few of us, went into the toilet to practise our song! seems like we're in a band or something... with me playing saxaphone (which i dunno how to!)... in a toilet!! how 'interesting' it is! after we're finished, we walked out and saw many ppl lining up to use the toilet. and from their faces, seems that they don't know wat we were doin in there for so long. -_-|||

ok... after that...
class start liao... everyone go into their own classes but i didn't coz i went to the toilet ... again??!!!! it's a unisex toilet! (hmm.. since when CH have unisex toilets?)
and by the time i came out, my class teacher had just left... guess who is that? it's 黄国兰! (my 初一班主任 and chinese teacher. she also taught me chinese for one or 2 years after form one)
so i went into the class... 5s1... shocked to see so many ppl in that class! 70 something students in that class! (we had abt 59 ppl in my 5s1)
i remember that i said: '我坐哪里啊？' then someone (sorry... forgot the face) pointed to an empty seat for me... and gosh...
coz we had too many students, we have 5 ppl sitting in the middle in rows but sharing 3 desks only! which means 2 ppl have to 'sit back' and no desk to use! i'm one of the unlucky ones....

and who's in that class? hehe...
there's 林欣怡 (a Ktn primary classmate) who sat on my left and she has a twin sister in the class too! (i'm sure she doesn't have one in reality! haha!), then a MUOSS (Melb Uni Overseas Student Services) fren sat on my right, then further right is JY.
then behind me is 倩俐 .... on her left is a guy but i forgot who is he dee....

ok then... i heard someone said... '国语干事要换' ... means... they've just chosen a 国语干事 in 黄国兰's class??!! 黄国兰 is teaching us BM??!! That's interesting!! haha!

then there's no teacher in the class at that time coz she left early...
and in front of the class is this big projector screen, showing MTV! (well, of course we didn't have huge projector screen in our class. we have white boards)
I think the song is 杨丞琳's 暧昧 and the 2 ppl sitting next to me are busy copying down the lyrics! -_-|||

then i asked wat did i miss in 黄国兰's class... the MUOSS fren showed me his notebook, with the list of all 10 subjects... and the details abt how much weightings are each of the tests and exams.
woa!! he did the 'hw' before class even started! he said his mum wants to know abt it so he did the 'research' in advance...


well.. that's abt wat i remember from the dream... haha!
sorry if u think it's a boring dream... but it's wierd for me coz ppl from my different circles actually came together in that dream!
and some of you might not understand the whole thing... but.. that's how the dream was. :)

I usually dream every night when i sleep... is that good or bad?

Those where the days...

I'm suppose to sleep 20 mins ago... but i can't sleep...
not because it's too early

:(
miss the days me and JY chat till late at night...
miss the days when we tell each other abt any interesting stuff that happened during the day...

hate it when u usually (always) go back to m'sia earlier than me!
becoz i was the one who see you pack ur stuff like crazy (coz u always leave at the day u had ur last ppr),
and becoz i was the one who peeped at the windows to see if the taxi had arrived...
and then i'm the only one in the empty space...
:(

Distracted

Hmm... I started to think that, maybe i shouldn't say NO when mum and dad asked if i need them to come and 'take care' of me during my exam time. haha!

Think of it now... if mum is here, I wouldn't have to think of what to eat every single meal until sometimes when i know i SHOULD be hungry but i'm not! coz i dunno wat to eat and don't feel like eating...
if dad is here as well, then they can keep each other in companied while i'm studying.
and most importantly, if mum and/or dad is here, i'll be at least more 'disciplined' to study. haha!

The reason i don't want them to come during my exam time is that
i thought they'll be a distraction for me studying, and i don't have much time to spend with them and they'll feel bored here in melb!

but now... i think that the pros are more than the cons. haha!!
hmm... next year? haha!
__________________________

Found this 'thing' called Graduate Diploma in Genetic Counselling. hehe
Genetic Counsellor... sounds cool to me! haha!!
from now on... i'll consider that as one of my career options. :D

I'm lost!!!

Oh no!!!!
I'm LOST!!!
I'm lost in my own world!
I'm not as self-discipline that i were before.

I think it's because of the long 'swot vac' that i have before my first paper.

I SHOULD be studying!
But I can't concentrate, can't get into the 'mood' of studying!!
aih....

A walk through my mind...

Had to walk back home from Swanston st after the lunch because i missed the tram.
well, it was a good walk i should say...
been thinking abt something throughout the 20 mins walk.

it's abt me and myself...
我觉得我‘太过’知道自己要的是什么，知道自己要走的路是什么。
或许是太早做了决定，自己就不去尝试其他的东西。

比如说早在上大学前就想好，将来要读genetics，因为希望能'cure' genetics disease。
所以现在选明年的 stream 时都没有怎么‘需要’考虑其他的 options。或许应该说我的 2nd year subjects 也不允许我拿 6 out of 11 的选择。
这到底是好事还是不好呢？我到底有没有选错？

这只是其中一个例子。还有其他的事情也是如此。
到底‘太早’make up my mind 是好还是坏？

well, 如果 outcome turn out to be good, then 是好事。
但现在很多事我都还看不到结果的。
那种一直在想，一直在猜的感觉不好受啊！
甚至在还没看到结果之前就已经在开始后悔当初的果断。
唉...

很多事情都不在我们自己掌控的范围内，
很多时候都不知道明天会发生什么事情。
人每天都在变，思想也是如此。
所以我是不是应该给其他 options 一个机会？

当然，我还是相信有些事情，first instinct 是对的。

所以现在只能告诉自己，
当初做的决定是有原因的。
要相信自己的决定...

-last day of 2nd year-

Yesterday was my last day of uni.
Which means 'holiday' had started. but this holiday is for studying. :(
During the 2-hour break, few of us went to a lecture theatre which has a piano in it. hehe! that was the first time i played piano since i came over from KL in Feb this year! :)

6 of us went for a dinner, a end-of-2nd year + farewell to SC dinner. She's goin off for exchange in California next year first sem.

Dunno why... don't feel like talking throughout the dinner. Sorry... Can't help it... just don't know wat to say, a bit anti-social. but i still enjoy listening to ppl talking...

wat an sms!

wanna share this sms i recieved from an unknown person today.. haha!!

that person was saying that he/she has the post coital munchies and it's all 'my' fault! -_-"

then minutes later, another sms from that same person saying it was a wrong msg. -_-"

Help!!!

Everytime, after anything, big or small had happened to me, I'll keep thinking abt it until I hv someone to talk to abt wat had happened.

Just like today, went for an interview for the next year's CTG production. I kept thinking back what i've said in the 15 mins interview. until now!! that's almost 2 hours since it ended! Just can't get it off my brain!! and i can't focus on my pathology!!

well, i had a few interviews in my life, not that many, still 'countable'. haha! first, that's the interview for CTG in my first year, then the one for end of 1st year chem vacation research project,then another CTG interview in last sem, and then the part-time job at St Cinnamon. among all those, for the 1st 2 interviews and the one for St Cinnamon, I don't remember myself recalling and regretting abt wat i've said or wat i should have said during the interview.
How come? not that i don't want those position/ job i've in-ed for, not becoz i hv frens to talk to abt the interviews... mayb i'm still not mature enough to 'analyse' things?! hmm... dunno...

can't wait for the clock to strike 8pm! so that i can call someone to talk. haha!!

ARGH!!!

Have been working hard to keep up with my far behind lectures!! That's part of my study plan for the big exam...
Can't wait for the exam to finish!!

and I'm planning to go S'pore in Jan! Yay!!
I'm excited abt it.. haha!
To visit my high school frens and my aunt there. :)
My GRAND PLAN is... go New Year countdown with them, celebrate 2 21st b'days and a 20th b'day (did i miss out anyone?!)
That'll be fun fun fun!!!

Ok... that's just my PLAN... dunno if it works...

Alright, enough for that... need to head back to neuro now...
bla bla bla...

Moody...

A fren from my course had decided to withdraw from the course.
She's leaving next week and really hope that she'll be back in Melb uni next year again!
Will miss the time we spent eating nano-nano in lectures and library;
having lunch in union house;
and the smile on your face wherever you go...
Take good care of yourself in S'pore!! Don't let anyone worry abt you!

Grgh....

Sometimes (like now) just don't understand why some ppl like to make things complicated!!!!
When u can do it yourself, why asking someone else who has no idea wat's happening to do it?! Grgh....
You are just troubling other ppl!! >_<


Well, had my last test before the exam for this sem. It wasn't too bad i think, except some careless mistakes?!
Anyway, time to keep up with my readings and then final exam in Nov!!